I just had a dream that I had to write down before I forgot, and so I decided to blog it. I will fill in the background details later.
So the only thing I can remember from this dream is that Chad and I are sleeping in the same bed, and his ex girlfriend Stephanie (who I absolutely loathe) is in the other bed. And I’m pretending to be asleep but there are these commercials of her on TV, like she’s some sort of model. It was ridiculous. Anyway, Stephanie and Chad keep arguing about him not caring about her, and then Chad says “Stephanie, I care about you more than you care about yourself.”
Then the situation changes where we’re inside my big green van and Stephanie and Chad are now together and laying with each other, and I’m trying to get drunk people away from my van so they won’t throw up in it. Somehow, Maurice (a freshman at Lovett), Katherine, David, and Tyler Boyd end up in my car. Katherine is wasted and somehow, Stephanie turns into Jaclyn and she’s pretty wasted too. So after this is all taken care of and I close all of the blinds, I turn to now Jaclyn, but still Stephanie, and Chad and I start cursing them out. I start yelling at Stephanie first telling her how she was my friend and she wasn’t very good friends with me and she was really mean to me and I hated her for it. Then I turned to Chad and I really cursed him out. I think he started crying. I told Chad how fucking inconsiderate he was because he started dating his ex again who hurt him so much. I told him that didn’t even want to be in the same state as them because they make me sick to my stomach. I wished Chad would die in a dirty rotten hole, alone. I put more curse words in there, but I can’t really remember what they were.
Anyway, before I could finish my spiel, Jaclyn/Stephanie started throwing up. On my bed. I was so furious but at the same time I just kicked her out and made her throw up outside. Then Katherine threw up and I kicked her out too. Then Maurice threw up. I cleaned it all up. Then I woke up.
So…definitely one of the strangest dreams I’ve had in a while. I think I had this dream because of the Lovett-Baker powderpuff game last night. And how I felt so much animosity towards John’s ex, Jessica. And I really have no reason to feel that way because she never did anything to me and apparently she’s really nice. I feel like this dream was to tell me that not everyone’s ex is as crazy as Stephanie. And not everyone will call you a bitch even when you’ve been friends for a year. I’m not saying that Jessica will want to be friends with me, and I can understand why, but I’m saying that I shouldn’t feel so much anger towards her, because she has given me the greatest gift of all and that is John….even if John and I aren’t in a relationship, we’re just dating. And I don’t know how long I can be okay with that either, but we’ll see. For right now, I’m okay with it. But that’s a different blog for a different time.
I’ll update more extensively later, but for right now, the quick and dirty version:
- John and I are now dating. I really like him a lot, a little too much I think.
- Denny and I are friends again. He’s dating this really sweet girl Sherry and I think she’s adorable.
- I still hate Abby. But some things will never change.
- Chad and I don’t talk that much anymore, but he’s now pursuing this other girl named Hannah. Good for him. She’s an Asian Jew.
- I’m no longer studying in Edinburgh. Details for that will follow. =(
Until then,
Kreetal Gel
